The ripples of this reinvention are still going on and for some people they just can’t let go. For the musicians you get the feeling it lasted a few months and then they reinvented themselves again and again.
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Exile On Main Street
In The Rolling Stones on July 18, 2010 at 7:12 pmMy Dad on the beach at Rock 2004
In photography on July 16, 2010 at 10:31 pmMy Dad. Taken a few years back on our last holiday together. We played cricket and football with the kids. I love this picture.
Running
In photography on February 11, 2010 at 9:43 pmBrick Lane
In photography on January 29, 2010 at 8:31 am
Why did I take photographs?
Stupid reasons. All wrong headed. It was dawning on me that by taking a photograph I was, on the one hand, recording what I saw and on the other I was creating a movie. I was becoming the athor and curator of a visual diary. But a diary full of lies. I was weaving a narrative. And when you are young when you have no story woven around you, a past that’s not remarkable, no laurels to rest on, no achievements under your belt, you do need to create a myth, a story, a kind of calling card. And of course coming from the sleepy suburban backwaters of the backwaters I slept through was not an auspicious start. Infact to even say suburban backwater confers a kind of edgy glamour to my childhood that is completely undeserving. “Heaven is a place where nothing ever happens” goes the song. And that’s where I lived. Heaven.
The photographs were a way of creating a narrative. Each one a fragment from some unfolding drama. And when seen together, in their entirety they might tell a story. A fiction based on fact. I’d always loved the movies but no way did I have the temperament or the first idea how I might break into that magical kingdom. I think I knew too that I would always love watching movies more than climbing the thousand insurmountable mountains and crawling on my belly, over the thousand uncrossable pits of burning coal, in order to actually make one. Oh how easy instead to just take photographs and pretend each one was a still from a deeply interesting movie of someones life. Now I can see it was just a tale told by an idiot.
It was the same for all those theatrical nitwit neighbours of mine like David and Susie growing up young amongst the comfortably numb. They escaped by putting on different characters and various startling postures the better to shock their mums and dads. Life was one big fancy dress party. People dressed in plastic bags. Some kind of fashion.
Oh. And another thing. When you are young the world is confusing, daunting, chaotic and random. I think the photographs were a way of getting a purchase on it. Of making sense of it. And maybe controlling it. You shoot some here. You shoot some there. And you’re a bit like the local tomcat stalking around the back garden, pissing all over it. Marking your territory. It’s a life I suppose.
Anyway what does it matter? I don’t take photos anymore.



